Thank you, Ryan Holiday.
Humility is the foundation of this blog, and I had forgotten that fact.
My annual golf trip wasn’t as smooth as I expected, especially after working on my game hard for the past month. That expectation was the beginning of disappointment, as it usually is.
I’ve always held the belief that frustration builds when our anticipation doesn’t match the reality. The past couple weeks have been all imagination and no reality.
I stood on the driving range last week, thumping weak drives to the right. My clubs have changed, I’ve changed, and yet I still wanted pure. I cursed and slammed clubs without making any changes or progress. Driving myself insane watching my game deteriorate right before one of my favorite times of the year.
“Only one tournament left in my amateur tour for the season, and I fully intend to win it. I don’t think I’ve ever said something like that, so believe me when I say a beast awoke within.”
Believe me when I say, “golf will rudely wake you up if you disrespect it.” What does it care? It will still be there after it swallows you up and spits you out.
I don’t fully intend to win the championship anymore. I fully intend to do my best, though.
Here’s something you may not know:
That blue line is my handicap trend this year. Started at 3.9, peaked at 10, and is now back down to 4.6.
Even though I can’t win the trophy this year, I can look back and say, “I made progress.” If there was a most improved (or most inconsistent), I would probably win that, though :-D.
After this weekend is the off-season, and I’m looking forward to learning. I’m booking a lesson first thing in November and will continue to pour my heart, head, and soul into this thing I enjoy.
As you probably know, I use TheGrint for most of my basic tracking and handicap indexing. I also use GAME GOLF for some more insights. After too long, I decided to sign up for an account at Golf Stat Lab. By the recommendation of my coach and because of my love of stats, I’ve started using this program to get a more detailed look into my game. Look for a review in a few months after I’ve added enough rounds and talked through it with my instructor. I’m hoping it helps me quantify what I’ve been feeling about my game.
For example, at my last lesson I expressed disappointment in my tee box performance. When I hit some demo shots for my coach, they were right down the pipe with pretty pristine numbers. It was hard to convince him otherwise when my ball-striking seemed to be the more pressing matter. Being able to look at on-course performance should help us direct our focus (even if that still means ball-striking is my issue).
“I am not my results, I am my effort. I am not a product, I’m a process. I am not perfect, but I’m progressing. Let go of what you are and become what you might be.”